Enjoying my fishbowl view
Have you had anyone more experienced walk you through some of the reasons "why" you'd want to play certain things? I'm sure you understand that you're trying to struggle for control of territory, but learning the "how" of doing that depends a lot on understanding the "why's" behind choosing given moves and plans.I have a feeling I should just let Go go. :-/
If you really feel like giving up, no one here's going to judge you, but I'd be very happy to play a few teaching games with you; I'm certain I can help you to enjoy the game more.